Forgiveness

Hi, In the cosy, half awake period between the alarm and getting up, my mind drifted along. As often, two unconnected thoughts bumped into each other. The first was the news headline about people who are both Conservative Party members and LGBTQ+. Apparently some are feeling distinctly uneasy given recent statements by the current would-bes. I do wonder if they’d been asleep over the past decade as rhetoric had ramped up. 😋 (Then there’s this masterclass in allyship ❤️) As that thought floated by, an image of former and frequently cruel classmate followed. Someone who certainly wasn’t kind to a number of people in our class. They are both long dead and not someone I think about. I heard the […]

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Lessons Learned: Part XII – Bothering

Hi, How often have you heard or said the phrase “Ah, why do we bother eh?“. I ask this not out of judgement, but from curiosity. That and to lead into this chapter of Lessons Learned. 🙂 As a genderfluid person, I spend most of my life in bloke mode. What helps keep me okay, is enough time to express all of who I am. To anyone who thinks being genderfluid is just about dressing up, it’s not. My nature and needs do not switch off, I am always me, with whatever gubbins is going on in my head. The backchatter of “That’s nice… Ah, but not in Richard mode #SadFace”. Moreover I have to mask who I am or […]

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Finally

Hi, I don’t know about you, but in the raging heat of the European heatwave, the Muppet Show of UK politics, and the reveal of how much profit oil companies make in a day; there was only one question on my mind. What if the bloke in the loo next to me, used to be a woman? I mean, he might be butcher and more manly for a start! 😁 Talk about getting your priorities in a mix. 😋 So snarkiness aside, I’m very glad to report I’m not ill, knackered, or in a state. I have been waiting to write that for too long. It was about midweek that whatever had been weighing on me, drifted away. Perhaps, and […]

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Don’t panic, Jones

Hi, Ah, the slowly blinking cursor and white screen of a yet to be filled blog post. Time to engage Stream of Barely Consciousness, Lynn. 🙂 Personal I am…. frustrated with myself and my health this past week. It seems I am not fully out of the shadow of dear old, Uncle COVID. Yes, I’ve been testing negative and the cough is mostly gone. Yet, I find my brain – make your own jokes here 🙂- is not with it. On listening to others who’ve been there before, it seems it’s a good month before the mind fog clears. Well, bugger. This is unhelpful because a key part of who I am is creating and organising stuff. With the high […]

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Hands. Space. Farce.

Hi, I’ve had just over a week off, having taken some leave with the Ever Lovely Mrs J prior to last weekend. The first two days were very good: a friend’s wedding with good company, and no dysphoria either. Then, we found out Mrs J had COVID19. Ah, bugger. Still, we had a good run of not catching it and said virus wasn’t from the wedding, but from Wee Man, bless him. I think Mrs J was the first to succumb to the viral payload’s charms, and never one to be left out, I followed about a day later. The good news, is we’ve not passed it about at the wedding. I have, however, breathed on the door handles for […]

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The need for Pride

Hi, This year sees the fiftieth anniversary of Pride in the UK. I’ve listened and read to the interviews of those who were there. Bless them, what an amazingly brave thing to do back in the 70s as well. 🏳️‍🌈 Hearing from people who managed to gather their courage and go to a Pride event or gay venue for the first time, that was really moving. I also, felt a touch of guilt around Pride. What I mean is, I don’t go to the one in the city and represent Chameleons. I help run the group, I run outreach Q&A sessions, I help organisations update their policies, I try to help parents who email the group, blah de blah blah, […]

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