Month: August 2017

Other people

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Hi, As I walk along the corridors and see others, sometimes the Green Eyed Monster draws her claws. But outside of my head, what’s going on in the minds of others? There’s that phrase “Be kind: You never know what others are going through.” Back when I was young, when someone asked me that “what superpower would you want?” I’d often say I’d like to be able to read minds. To truly know what someone was thinking. Trust issues anyone? 🙂 Jokes aside, I think it might have been to try and understand if everyone was a messed up as me. I think as I’ve got older, the quick answer is there’s no one normal. We’re still kooky in our […]

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Mind the gap

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Hi, Last time I mentioned the phrase “a sting of dysphoria”. Sometimes the feeling of not being right with how you look can pounce on you. It’s not like such feelings sneak up, and if you look carefully, they’re lurking in the bushes or pretending to suddenly examine the contents of a shop window. No, these, for me at least, lurk unseen, biding their time for some type of trigger event. A gap between support meetings, or being stuck in a suit for work. I once had a trigger event while a lady waited to set off from the junction in her car. Her hair flicked as she looked both ways, and my negative inner voice said: “You’ll never do […]

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Funshine

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Hi, Despite somehow catching a cold in summer and the lengthy downpours, the British Weather is having a final throw of the dice for sun, wispy white clouds, and pale blue skies. Put away your opaques and boots, break out the sandals and fancy tops one more time 🙂 For whatever reason I had a sting of dysphoria at the start of the week, resulting in a shoe purchase as medication. Like many material purchases, it’s the search that distracts, not the purchased goods. I think I know that you should aim for experiences, not possessions. Still, when you’re on the work-home-work-home treadmill, sneaking in some T time isn’t always easy. It seems that in times of dysphoric dissonance, I fall […]

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History

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Hi, Each week Auntie Beeb* runs a radio show called Book of the Week over on Radio Four. Oddly, and speaking personally, for someone who was very into music in my 20s, I pretty much only listen to talk radio. Perhaps, looking at it a bit more, I never listened to music radio, because they very rarely played stuff I liked. Not much has changed 🙂 [ * For you overseas readers, that’s a nickname for the BBC, our state broadcaster. ] So, Book of the Week; and back in July, it was the turn of self-described “executive transvestite”, Eddie Izzard. In order to keep my Trans License current, you have to listen to at least one of his performances […]

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