Positive change

Hi folks, How’s things? For those of you in Dear Old Blighty, hopefully you’re managing to cope with the hellweather summer’s last hurrah. Oof. Wake me up when it’s back below 20°C 🙂 Enjoy the little things Bonus geek points if you can name the film reference 🤓 The good news around my mental health is that things seem to be settling down a little. Yes, I still feel the thrum of an over clocked heartbeat at times, stomach issues, but the incidents are generally less intense and shorter too. Worries come, but they do not seem to overwhelm me. This chemical detachment, if you will, seems to give the option to poke at the thought and pause: is this […]

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To sway with the wind

Hi, How’s things? Hopefully less muddled than my current brain state 😁 Keep taking the tablets So I’ve finished my half doses and I’m now on a regular 20mg tablet. The good news is I’ve been through the pit – over the placebo uplift and back out of the emotional wobble that follows. Hopefully, it’s a steady – if occasionally wobbly – climb that improves. I am feeling less panicky – which I guess the whole reason I’m back here 😁. I can still feel the pull of runaway worries, but (touch wood) they are not grabbing me or causing my body to go into panic mode. Again, reasons to be cheerful. I think my sleeping patterns are settling down […]

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Choice not sentence

Hello dear reader, Okay, so this is attempt number four to get this opening, uhh, open…? 🤦‍♀️ Deep breath, Lynn… and focus. It bears repeating that here at YATGB, I write about what’s going on: the good, the bad, and the whatever. Sometimes the world, sometimes Chams, and oftentimes, whatever nonsense is fluttering around the maelstrom wind in my mind. I got into writing after reading (following?) the Web 2.0 boom of trans blogs as Becky’s Web and Joanna’s Diary. Jeez, that’s over twenty years ago. I wonder what they’re up to now? 🤔 Reading how others coped, thrived, fought, and learned to live with being somewhere under the transgender umbrella, helped me. Likewise, writing has let me make sense […]

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Time

Hi, It’s been a while hasn’t it? Unusually for a post, I’m actually in Lynn mode. Usually, I’m laid back on the sofa, or tucked away somewhere quite, swiping the virtual keyboard. So, where are we now? In truth, could be better, but equally, things could be a whole lot worse. 🙂 We had some time away as a family and, well, there were good and bad bits. The good is that we all got to go away, have a change of scene, try some new things, and there was no housework to be done either. Okay, a bit of cooking, but not much and Mrs J excels at that. I’m more semi organised heating, rather than anything creative. We […]

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Pressing the backspace key

Hi, I’m having issues at the mo around writing. The ideas come quickly enough and yet I feel I’m self censoring. Just the other day I started a reply to someone and I stopped. Not because it was mean, unkind, or dodgy: but simply, if I don’t say this, does it matter? Sharper tongued readers may be asking that about the whole blog…. and they’d not be wrong! 😁 I felt urged to comment – perhaps even satirically – around recent rulings (see here: The Good Law Project and PinkNews here) – but again, why? Those reading this are likely to trans or allies, and in ‘preaching to the choir’ is anything likely to change? I could spend that energy […]

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The Formula of You

Hi, It’s been a bit of an odd week this time around. Some good, some could-be-better, some WTAF?!, and a few tears along the way. My, that does sound dramatic that last bit! But it’s nothing serious or life threatening. I guess things build up and the eyeball sprinklers go into test mode 😉 Readers of a more fabulous nature may prefer the phrase mascara bothering egress 😁 but I wouldn’t know anything about that (Ted 😉). Could-be-better You might have picked up on an earlier link about Highly Sensitive People. Do please click the link if you’re curious. I’ve since read – and I can’t find the link – that the word sensitive comes with extra cultural baggage. E.g.: […]

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