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“How can I change the world if I can’t even change myself?
I cannot change the way I am?
I don’t know, I don’t know.”

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Hey folks, In my best New York accent, how ya doin’? 🙂 All good I trust. This week has been…. mixed, which I guess is par for the course for us. Monday meant it was time for another appointment of CBT enlightenment….. and…. and…. Bum. I’ve run out of steam. :- I was hoping to say something positive about the experience, but you know what? I’m struggling. Things went okay, we talked about the power of emotions and the concept of ‘armouring yourself’ against the (Ed: slings and arrows? 😛 ) day to day roll of negative thoughts. We also went through one of the off-line exercises – off-line as in: your task this week is to… – I’d brought in. I’d picked […]

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“Turn me around and take me back to the start,
I must be losing my mind,
I’ve seen it all a million times.”

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Hi there, Blimey, it’s turned a tad chilly of late hasn’t it? Righto, that’s the obligatory English conversational invitation over with, shall we move on? 🙂 I think the warm November had softened me up a little. I certainly wasn’t ready to be sat on the wrong side of cold in the office today. Luckily we have an emergency heater that we keep stashed in the draw – just don’t tell Estates. Shhh. 🙂 Despite the lack of sunlight and cold, cold weather, I’m enjoying December. I think it’s the run up to Xmas and all that it entails. Despite being slightly less flush in the bank department than last year…. Well, that’s not strictly true. The Ever Lovely Mrs […]

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“Because the plot thickens every day,
And the pieces of my puzzle keep crumblin’ away,
But I know, there’s a picture beneath”

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Hiya, It’s been a bit of a mixed week this time around. Mostly good, with what really shouldn’t be a big deal. Shall we get on with it then? Oh and a brief apology as this week’s entry is rather lengthy. The Trans Factor Channel Four recently started a new series called My Transsexual Summer. I guess that’s following the idea of X number of folk of a particular type, get them under one roof and film them. There was a show earlier in the year called Seven Dwarves which featured – wait for it, wait for it – a number of vertically challenged people who shared a house. AFAIK there wasn’t a bird from a glass coffin who did […]

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“Summertime, And the livin’ is easy”

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Hey all, Hmmm…. Where to start with this one? Well…. I guess it’s a bit tricky to write about trans stuff when … umm… you’re not actually doing any crossdressing 🙂 So it goes! This coming Thursday is Chameleons and I think I will try to make the effort to go in Lynn-mode. I’m not making any promises mind you. If goes all summery and hot, I shall forsake the glad rags for want of a bit of cooler attire. Let’s hope I can still remember how to walk in my heels. 🙂 I believe it’s Sparkle this weekend and with the ‘meh’ vibe towards all things dressing up, I can’t say I’m overly fussed. Perhaps that’s a good job […]

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“Nice day for a… white wedding.”

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Hello dear reader, Unlike last week, I have managed to remember what day I usually post on. 🙂 With all these holidays, my internal clock is a little all over the place, but it’s been so nice to have the time off. Easter, then Bank Holidays, a day off and today (of course), the big event itself. Don’t worry, I won’t go into in-depth sofa-eye-view of Kate & Wills’ wedding. The media reporting got on my wick a bit and if I’m really honest, sort of put me off a little. Still, sat on the sofa with the Ever Lovely Mrs Jones, we watched the church service together. Kate’s dress was lovely and I wish them well. Talk about media […]

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“Dark clouds drift away to reveal, the sunshine”

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Hi, Straight off the bat, I’d like to thank those of you who were kind enough to get in touch last week offering advice or simply the question “are you okay?”. I’m a lot better than I was last week. Phew eh? 🙂 Not to make light of it, although that is very much my way of coping with sh**, is to mock it. The previous week was not a good one and as I look back it at now – with the benefit of 20/20 hindsight – the return of the Black Dog was only temporary. Of course, when you’re down in the murk, you can’t really see  a way out of it. Perhaps some type of torch would […]

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