“I was breaking out of my own skin,
Choking upon release,
I’m in no state, to judge you…”

Hi folks, Winter seems to have arrived. Frozen windscreens, leaves turning brown and a rush to get the kids into their coats before we go. All the apples have gone from the trees in our garden. Many have been boxed or given away. We had a bumper crop this year. Stuff to be thankful for eh? Then today, a bright dose of late sunshine to melt the cobwebs away. Tuesday Therapy time again. We seem to have fixed it all to the trans railroad and off we go along it. I’ve been keeping a track of my moods, just a series of dots in Notepad. Any day that’s more than a 5, I think of that as being typical; normal […]

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“Owner of a lonely heart. Much better than an owner of a broken heart.”

Howdy, How’re tricks? This time around the post is, to coin a well-loved phrase, a game of two halves. Well, not so much on the game front. That would imply some type of playing about or…. actually, I don’t know, but something less than serious. 🙂 Earlier As I write it’s Tuesday afternoon and I’ve just come back from my first counselling session. It was a positive experience and we talked about a number of issues. How do I feel right now? A little calmer than when I left. Back then, I left… well, not upset, but like I had been shaken up internally. As if there was a swirling wind within me; something pushing at the metaphorical bars trying […]

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“If the days they seem to fall through you,
Well, just let them go…”

Hello, How’s things with you out there in the wide, wide world of sports? All good I trust. Compared to last week’s rather large post, this one will be a bit shorter. Well, I say that, let’s see if I get a special delivery from The Muse 😉 The start of the week was not so good. No bad news or anything, but again, another drop in the old brain chemistry. Not the complete drop and inability to function level of badness, but not that pleasant either. From what I could tell, there was nothing bothering me per say, I guess it was just one of those things. Still, you ride it out: keep busy, do things with the kids, […]

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“If it’s not like the movies,
That’s how it should be…”

Hi, A week of highs and lows this time around. Funny, I suppose after my oh-so quiet post of last time. Maybe a case of be careful of what you wish for? 🙂 Tuesday, well, that was a bit of a black day if I’m honest. But don’t worry, it did improve! It wasn’t that anything went wrong or that anyone was hurt, that particular day. Instead, I guess I just slipped a little in the wrong direction. Maybe the chemical thrusters failed and I drifted towards the black hole far closer than I’d liked. I’m not talking about feeling a bit down, moreover the flat out lay on the bed – or in my case – sit in the […]

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