Last night at just after 11pm I was upstairs at Chams about to get changed. The heels I’d borrowed from the Ever Lovely Mrs J were beginning to make themselves known, I was heading into A Bit Too Warm due to the industrial-strength shapewear, and yet, I was comfortable. Not physically, but emotionally.
|Thanks to Val Photographics|
Maybe it was due to a long spell between me dressing, that I was happy with my look, that I’d had a good talk with friends, met some new members, or maybe none or all of those things. Whatever caused it, I’m not sure it matters. What does, is that feeling of being comfortable with who you are.
I think it’s important to keep such moments. Not to hoard them like gold, but to remember and know that when things aren’t 100%, that they can be and you will feel good about things once again. Perhaps like finding a small bag of sweets in your pocket on a rainy day, or a fiver in the back of your wallet.
Talking of feeling good, towards the end of the night, we had a quick chat about the occasional ride on the dysphoria rollercoaster. It seems some of us – this time it was Katie – who said she felt that somehow she was on this up and down journey, and she wanted to know if it got easier. The quick answer is yes, it does, but it takes time. The whole thing settles down and the ups are less, and therefore so are the downs. Time and some self-forgiveness can help. Perhaps, even, looking back at what’s gone well, may help too.
The conversation moved on – this time about earrings – and I passed on a pair of my old clip-on hoops that I’d clung on to. That made someone happy, and if you can help someone, I think that’s a good thing.
Now the temperature is starting to rise and it’s the start of a long weekend. A rather nice way to be eased back into it all, after the big holiday. Now, just a question of paying off the credit card, sorting out the washing, and attempting to clear the meadow that was the back lawn. 😉