Year: 2019

Making hay while the sun shines

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Hi, Earlier on I was queueing patiently – as is the done thing in Dear Old England – while waiting to get a cup of tea. My eyes wandered along the decor and I noticed one of those nicely painted quotes that do the rounds. The painting style, that is, not the quote 🙂 “Live as if you were to die tomorrow. Learn as if you were to live forever.” ~ Mahatma Gandhi I was struck by the apparent opposites of the statement: quite possibly the purpose, but I due to a lack of tea, my mind wasn’t yet fully up to speed. At least, that’s my excuse and I’m sticking to it 🙂 It made me think about the Radio […]

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Plodding on

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Hi, Well, the good news is that things are ticking over. Much as I still feel the guilt around what I’ve done, what I’ve noticed is that I’m calmer at home and at work. It feels a bit as if something has unlocked with me, or perhaps, that the flame of anger has turned down to a low heat. Given I can’t go back or magically recarpet my pins, I’m going to have to accept, face the consequences, and hope for the best. But, enough about that. Blogging, for me at least, is a bit of a strange beast. Let’s skip over the innuendo around a strange beast’s bits though, eh? 😉 I think I’ve posted at various times about […]

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Midweek Madness

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Hi, Not the best snap, but it’ll do So, the ongoing cycle of worry versus reward and me vs man has been running like a tumble drier half filled with bricks. The psychic noise keeps me awake at night, and in the day, distracts against the burden that is work. I’m sure that’s part of it too: the type of stress that gets to me, rather than motivates me. I know it will pass, but… well, yeah. I… I have fought… and lost. I found I could not stand at the edge any longer… I stopped fighting and let go. Of course, once you let go, you can’t ‘unfall’, the journey has started. So it is that my legs are […]

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When things feel natural

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Hi,  Well, that’s the first week of work in the bag and frankly, I’m glad it’s over. The Ever Lovely Mrs J once said that she didn’t mind a dull job, provided the people were nice. Well, for me in the last month or so, the work’s been interesting, but some of the folk involved have been… tedious. I will spare you the full-on work rant because I know the project will draw to a close soon, and I doubt you come here to read about my employment woes 😉 The short version is: if you’re going to be an arse, expect people won’t go the extra mile. So, trans stuff. Last night was Chameleons, so it felt good t […]

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A tale of two wardrobes

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Hi, Keeping two wardrobes can be tricky. I would love to think it’s not about deceit, but keeping things out of the way. Not everyone needs to know what we have in the cupboard I guess. But, if you’re in that place where you can be cool with your partner, or even family, I think that’s a good thing to have or to work towards. Plus, if you are in that place, I think it’s a good thing to keep working at respecting your partner’s needs where you can. Sure, I get that we need to express ourselves and I think we also have to not pursue things at the cost of everything – or indeed – everyone. That, I […]

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Slip ups

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Hi, Ah, Friday evening. The promise of what might be at the weekend, and this time around, it’s half-term too, so the kids, the Every Lovely Mrs J and I will all be away from school/work for a bit. While it’s not quite Spring yet, it feels like it’s been a long Winter. I’m very glad of the break and I think my nearest & dearest all are too. I think it’s interesting how certain times of the week affect my emotions. I think we’re all aware of the dreaded Monday morning, and the positive mood in the office around late Friday afternoon. Wednesday has that midweek slump, or – if you’re in more of an upbeat vibe – it’s […]

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