It’s bloomin’ freezing at the mo! 🙂 I’m sat with two jumpers and a fleece on, but I’m still feeling the cold. Then again, I’ve always been a bit of a nesh* bugger 🙂 There’s talk about a little snow – well, actually quite a lot of snow – according to the weather, but I won’t be digging out my snowshoes just yet.
(Ed: a propensity for feeling the cold – for the benefit of our overseas readers 😀 )
Like a good bonfire, I find snow rather magical. Yes, I know technically speaking there’s nothing special about frozen water falling in unique fractal shapes 😛 It’s more than the land is transformed from what you see when you look out of the window to something fresh and so new. Plus, snow swallows sound and the world feels different. Perhaps I wouldn’t be in such a good mood if I had to go to work in it. 🙂
So, are you all sorted for Christmas? Here at Chez Jones we’re just about done. Just a few small items to get – which we can do via the supermarket – and we’re good to go. Just the wrapping to sort out then. That’ll be a task and a half. Still, with a few tunes on the MP3 player, the time will go by quick enough. Mind you, this time next week it’ll all be over. I hope you get (and have given) something nice.
I’m hopeful that Mrs Jones will enjoy her lot this Christmas. That’s not to say that she doesn’t normally, far from it, but there’s always that little wedge of doubt: is this any good? Will she be happy with X? Still, if I didn’t care, maybe that would be a sign of a) being a smug pillock or b) not caring – and that’s simply not true. (Ed: or (c) – both 😛).
Maybe it’s a trans thing, but I don’t mind looking through the racks of skirts and tops, or at the seemingly endless variety of slap – sorry, make-up – that I could buy Mrs Jones. Actually, putting it like that, it must be a trans thing 🙂 While browsing, I did find a very cute dark red skirt (in the sale too!), although it was – *honestly* – only in my size. That did go in the shopping basket. A bit naughty, but I did buy two extra gifts to cover it.
That leads me on to something Alex (thanks misses!) posted this week about entitled What is Gender? The source is from a specialist – at least to my untrained eye – and makes for very interesting reading. Well, it is if you like that type of thing. I know I do. 🙂 A number of bits had me nodding and thinking about friends and also myself. The idea that elements of who you are will shine through – the old cliche of the truth will out. That and when you can start to be yourself, the feeling of being at ease with who you are, drives you onwards. The old analogy of a dam and a torrent of water bursting out springs to mind. After all that time couped up, you want to be free. Of course, there’s a price for that freedom, but such is life. Sometimes it’s compromise, sometimes you lose people. I guess it comes down to how badly you want to be you.
I think I know where I stand now: I’m somewhere in between the two poles and that’s not necessarily a bad place. While articles like the above won’t give you all the answers, I find comfort in them. I find that there’s a reason for my behaviour. I’m this way because of Nature, it’s not any one’s fault. If there’s no fault, then there can be no blame. If there is no blame, should there be any guilt?
So that’s me done for another week and as next Friday it’ll all be over bar the turkey sarnies, may I wish you all a very merry Christmas. I hope you get something nice in your stocking (sheer or otherwise 😀 ) and if you’re troubled at all, you find a bit of festive peace coming your way.
[ Today’s lyric: Fairytale of New York by The Pogues & Kirsty MacColl ]