“Safe in the knowledge there will always be a bit of my heart devoted to it..”

Summer greetings!

Is there such a thing as summer greetings? Well, there’s Seasonal Greetings for Christmas, so why not something for Summer eh? 🙂 Phew! It’s really warming up isn’t it. I hope it stays nice for the weekend. It would be nice to head out for a bit of park life and let the kids enjoy themselves.

Anywho… Last week Rachel’s comments on the theory that cross-dressing (or being transgendered if you prefer) may not be nurture, but something we are born into. Certain it explains a few home truths! I would also wager it shows its better to feel it rather than fight it (to mangle some words from Primal Scream). To my trans* intuition (!!) this feels right in someway. The anecdotal evidence – as we mentioned last week – is quite strong, but that doesn’t make my comments a valid nor accurate study.

Don’t worry, I’ll get to the point in a minute! 🙂 While I was out enjoying a chat and a cake at Chams (in fabby fave new top) last night (great turnout by the way), the BBC ran a programme featuring John Barrowman. For those of you who aren’t from the UK or don’t follow Dr Who / Torchwood / I’ll Do Anything / The Kids Are Alright (okay – I don’t watch the last two), John’s a big strapping 50s pin-up of a guy who happens to be gay. Some folk have a problem with the character he plays – Captain Jack – but honestly, I think it drags the show forward, but that’s not what I wanted to chat about.

No, the programme – which I’m hoping to catch on iPlayer – details the recent research into how the hormones you are subjected to as an unborn child affect you. New Scientist had reported on studies showing the differences in straight vs gay brains a few years ago. Clearly, research waits for no man and the results are in.

Hopefully, I won’t upset too many folks with this next bit. Where are we part-timer trans folk in this avenue of research? Do we have a bit of female brain wrapped up alongside our male traits? Are we not quite female-centric enough to be truly gay or bi? Have we by some quirk of fate had our brains feminised just a bit to make us this way? One thing’s for sure, I’m not going to find the answers rattling around in my brain. I shall leave that to the professionals…. cue theme music!! 😀

Take care

[ Lyrics: Parklife by Blur. This one kinda ticks both boxes: going out on Thursday and the weekend. Ah, musical puns eh? 🙂 Cheesily Cheerful and all that! ]

[ Update: Wow. Some of the tests from the shrinks – like spacial skills and wordage – plus the childhood stories are ringing a few bells. LOL Damn. I think I might a closet Scotsman 🙂 ]


  1. One of the things I wrestle with is whether we would actually want scientific proof either way. Perhaps I worry that the consequences of scientific proof either way would be detrimental.

    On the one hand if it’s proven to be nurture, then this gives weight to those (largely outside the T community) who argue for conditioning therapy to cure crossdressing.

    On the other, if it’s proven to be the result of a chemical combination during birth (nature) then the question becomes:
    “Would you choose to have a transgender child if there was an alternative?”

    Because you can bet that the conservative right (at least here in the US) will eagerly sponsor research to isolate and revert the chemicals that cause “abnormalities” such as homosexual and transgender tendencies.

    Crossdresser Heaven

  2. Vanessa > I've heard it said that even if proof was delivered, there would be people who would dispute it.

    > therapy to cure…

    Personally I feel I'm a lost cause for the idea of a cure. 🙂 To take all the TG elements out of me would leave someone very different to who I am now. Being a tranny is part of my character, it's not the defining part, but the influence on my non-TG interests and personality cannot be underestimated.

    In my youth I thought I wanted to be normal, but really I think I wanted to just be 'okay' with who I was.

    One day the science that lets us know our child's genetic future will arrive. How that affects society will be interesting (in the sense of the old Chinese proverb 😀 ).

    If there was a test to let me know my child's sexuality, I don't think I'd want to know. I feel there is a massive difference between being 'incompatible with life' and not being straight.

    Rather worringly, I know people – including some distant relations – who think very differently. I find that very scary indeed.

  3. I would agree despite the evidence there are still organisations offering a cure for homosexulality, sometimes taking advantage of vunerable people.

    I would agree with going with the flow (from my hard won experience) but it wont people contemplateing or going through with it.

  4. Summer greetings?! Ha, you Northern Hemisphere folks and your crazy, mixed-up seasons!

    On the subject of the main body of the post, I’d have to say I agree with the idea that the brains of CDers might be partly feminized, probably as the result of things that happened (or didn’t happen) in utero. In my own case, I can’t help thinking that the fact my father served in Vietnam may have had something to do with it all – maybe all the Agent Orange floating around there had something to do with the way I turned out. 🙂

    Thankfully, the times when I’ve felt uncomfortable with the way I am have been very few, though those few times have convinced me that just accepting this aspect of my personality is the way to go. Like you, I feel it’s an integral part of me, and I really don’t know what I’d be like if it all just disappeared one day.

  5. Hello!

    I, too, am interested in the results coming out of ‘metagenetics’, and the studies of other influences on the unborn child. Just one small point: while the timing or quantity of testosterone arriving in utero might influence what the popular press call ‘brain sex’, I don’t see how bisexual leanings fit into the framework – mostly because I can’t see an evolutionary advantage to it.

    I suppose time will tell. Would I want to ‘cure’ an unborn child of transgendered tendencies if they turned out to have a simple, biological source? I think yes… assuming the procedure was free from significant risk. (Despite being a TV myself.)

  6. Lucy > They'll always be the snake-oil salemen out there feeding on the vulnerable.

    I don't think it matters how many experts say being TG is hardwired, if a person doesn't feel okay with themselves, trouble will remain until they come to terms with who they are. That nirvana-like release is something (I feel) that comes from within.

    Zosimus > *chortle* Look, just because you can celebrate Christmas in the sunshine 🙂

    I'm glad to hear you don't struggle with who you are. I know people that have (I did) and who still do. For some it can be hell.

    Re: your comments on it being part of you, it's not something I've really sat and thought about: how different a particular person's personality could be if they were a different sexuality. Food for thought!

    Suomy > Hi there! 'Metagenetics' there's an interesting word!! 🙂

    From an evolutionary point of view, people who don't want to reproduce do fill a need. While they don't pass on their genetics, they do offer help to the community they fit into. Just because you don't have kids, doesn't mean you don't offer something to a society to help others.

    I've read in research that bi people – in the researcher's words – are people who just love sex: unlike the rest of us, they're not bothered about the other partner's gender. 🙂

    I find it interesting that you say you'd opt to pick a cure for an unborn child. May I ask why?

  7. I could be wrong about ‘metagenetics’ but I think that was the term used in a Radio 4 documentary which explained how stresses during pregnancy could influence the child. One example that was given was that children carried during a stressful time will tend to mature faster, to give them more chance to pass on their genes.

    I hope it’s not just a knee-jerk, phobic response, but I can’t really come to terms with the idea of bisexuality as nature rather than nurture… and a rather decadent nurturing at that. It just seems a little too much like having one’s cake and eating it, somehow.

    As for the hypothetical ‘cure’ for an unborn child… I felt that I’d opt for it because parents want their children to be safe, and happy. Being transgendered has caused me a fair bit of unhappiness along the way. If you think of it as a blessing, good luck to you!

  8. I think its hard to paint all bi’s the same way, (just like trans) some more accurately are gay, some more accurately are straight, others lean more to one side than the other but still have bi leanings and a rump of genuine bisexuals.

    Some possibly are nurture but (no evidence for this admittedly) nature has to play a part for many.

    Being childless I feel I cant answer the would I? Question honestly.

  9. Whether the answer is found to be genetic or chemical or something else entirely, it would be a much better world if none of us had to worry about a cure, forcible or legislative, and could just be ourselves!

    There is no more excuse for the terror created by hate in this question than any other!

    Yes, I realize I’m speaking idealistically. 100 years ago anyone who thought women should get to vote was an idealist, not a realist.

    75 years ago those who spoke out for integrated school systems were as well.

    I hope I live to see the day that no child goes through anything like Rachel wrote of last week, or like “suomy nona” eludes to above…

  10. Suomy > Some folk just don't like boundaries! 🙂

    It wasn't always easy, but I think I'm pretty much okay with what / who am I now. I think that wanting to fix everything for your child is admirable, but also fraught with risk. Do we risk turning them into 'Stepford Kids' in some way?

    I wouldn't wish a hard life on my children, yet equally, I wouldn't want to stifle their chances. Sometimes you need to f**k up to learn… IMHO 🙂

    Lucy > That's the trouble with sweeping generalisations! 🙂

    Alan > Hear, hear!! Well said that man.

    I read Rachel's post the other week and what it reported was horrible.

    Do you find yourself wishing you were there sometimes?

  11. Stepford kids… good way of summing it up. There is certainly a danger that we might be tempted towards intervention. I’d never have existed, for example. I’d be ‘somebody else’ because my genes would have been tweaked to eliminate that dreadful ailment: baldness.

    It just depends how far down the ‘every sperm is sacred’ route you want to go, I suppose… and there’s a danger that in eliminating an unfashionable characteristic today, we might be weakening the human race of the future, by reducing diversity.

    I don’t think of a mis-timed exposure to testosterone in the womb as something that defines ‘me’ though – and it doesn’t influence diversity. I imagine I’d be quite happy to have avoided it, in the same way that I wouldn’t consider a childhood brush with mumps to have defined my character.

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