As I was getting ready the other night, I had one of those moments of why am I doing this? That sightly off-centre thought that makes you question what’s going on. It’s all the…. malarkey and faffing about. A close shave, packing a bag, strapping in to shapewear, painting my face various colours, and then putting on fake hair. It’s all a bit…. confusing at times.
But, so to perhaps is yelling at eleven folk pushing a ball around the grass, getting involved in a fabricated drama about people who do not exist, or tapping madly on a plastic controller to move some coloured lights on a screen.
Well, look who’s had their vitamin cynicism today 😉
Perhaps the truly strange thing isn’t any of the above. Maybe it’s ignoring who you really are, not trying to keep the planet habitable, or supporting organisations that are actively hostile to who you are.
In related news… I’m tired of replying I’m tired. Not the physical lack of energy, but whatever internal – which autocorrect kindly put as infernal 🙂 – issues are currently affecting my mood and lethargy. When M asked me how things were on Thursday, I wished I could have said oh, okay really, but that wouldn’t be true nor accurate. I’m frustrated things seem to be dragging on… and not the right type of drag either 😉 More fab, less flag, please brain 🌈
A night out certainly helped. As much as I am okay with my own company, listening to others and being with people like me, well, it’s both rewarding and somehow recharges something within me. It’s something I don’t seem to get in CisTown as much.
It’s sort of like the feeling you get when you do a good deed because it seems the kind thing to do. I don’t do the latter because of the joyful feeling, but because I think the world could do with a bit more kindness. Perhaps in these troubled times, we need a lot more…. but I’ll stop there before I go into a scathing comment about certain governments near and far.
So, I’m grateful for an evening with friends, the Ever Lovely Mrs J’s health hanging on in their, and getting a few things done this week. West good stuff have you got in your life right now? It doesn’t matter if it’s big or small, so long as it makes a difference for you.