I feel the urge to start off with some witty comment rather than the usual “how’s you?” But my feet are cold and really I should be sorting out something to eat, so I’m not quite in the zone. Shall we just get straight to it? (Ed: oo-er!)
Have you ever worked for something – a personal goal, some material item, job or holiday – and then when it’s just about to arrive, stop and think: is this what I really want?
I’m on that track right now. There’s a job opportunity opening soon and for the last year or so I’ve been thinking: once so-and-so position arrives, I can put my hand to that and leave a lot of this junk behind! Funny thing is, now the new position is about to be released (at least according to the rumour mill – or ‘cooler talk’ as I hear from overseas), I’m looking at it thinking: but is that really me? Do I really want to go down that route?
I guess parts of it are self-doubt (can I do it?) but more of it is: will it interest me? Do I want to leave my work mates behind? I mean they’re a really good bunch – and in the unlikely event they’re are reading this, thanks for keeping schtum 😀
(Ed: You know, if someone posts anonymously ‘Your secret’s safe with us Lynn, Love from all in XYZ Corp’ – she’ll freak out )
We have a good laugh together and, hand on heart truth: it’s more who I work with that makes the job than what I manage to complete. Maybe I’m just weird… Actually, don’t answer that 🙂
The other factor is the pace – or perhaps my impression of what the pace may be. From down here in the trenches, it seems all rather high powered. It’s also change; I know I can do what I do now. This new role will be away from hands-on to something slightly more remote and communication orientated. Funny, because I can talk – and write – for England. I enjoy giving presentations or teaching people how to do stuff. Hell, maybe I missed my vocation: “Smith, take those heels off until you can walk properly in them…. Now, off to Maths, there’s a good lad.” 🙂
So I’m in a bit of a quandary at the mo. Possibly, I should apply when the chance arrises and if I don’t get an interview, or fluff the one I could get, it wasn’t meant to be. I can always comfort myself with a spot of shopping 🙂
I think it’s now, now that I’ve a family of my own, that I sit back and think: is work now just something to pay the bills? Does any of it really matter compared to what happens in my own time? Then I look at what I’m doing now and wonder if it’ll last me until I retire. Maybe the time to jump is now. Ahh, to see one’s future or not eh? 🙂
And on that note, take care,
[ Today’s lyric: The Right Decision by Jesus Jones ]